“Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.” Aristotle
Self-discovery is such a crazy thing. Even crazier is the fact that it can and will continue to happen throughout the rest of your life. Sometimes you see it happening; you embrace and immerse yourself in the changes and discoveries. Other times, it hits you like a ton of bricks in the midst of a revelation or something that just gets down inside you and stirs you, whether for better or worst.
One example of self-discovery for me was learning to live in the moment. I was having a breakdown in communication with someone I was dating. You know, when you get to the point where it’s not all feelings of euphoria and flirty text messages but starts to move into this gray area. You realize you love that person but are always fighting, or your relationship hits a crossroad (for me it was the latter). Right then in that moment, out of no where, in a voice which was almost inaudible I said to myself, “You will be ok….It will be ok”. I have to be frank, I have absolutely no idea where this concept or “voice” came from…somewhere deep, down inside it escaped me “ It will be ok, you will be ok”. I decided no matter how painful, to let go of the relationship. I needed to get to know myself.
In all actuality, it was by living in the moment that I was able to step outside myself and take inventory of the facts:
- We all tend to have this preconceived notation of the future and what our lives are supposed to look like.
Let’s be honest man or woman, guy or girl, we had this vision of where we thought we ought to be at a particular time and place in our lives, but more often than not our vision and our reality aren’t in sync. The thing I found to be really important is not to take for granted all of the glorious things that have occurred in place of that preconceived notion. In my situation, I got to truly know myself.
One example I can pull from my own life of a preconceived notion is kids. I honest to God though at the very least, I would have had a child 5 years ago…it wasn’t god’s plan. Even though it would be really easy to state all the reasons why this had sadden me, why bother? Let’s look at reality. I have a ton of friends with kids (yes multiple) who live vicariously through me. Many of which remark on how frequently I travel. Truth be told, I don’t really think I travel that much (Surely not as much as my friend Jason…Hi Jay!!) but in comparison I suppose more than them. I get to enjoy watching their kids grow and fostering my relationships with them. I always aim to be the best aunt and God mother I can be. That is not something I take for granted. I enjoy watching these kids grow and seeing how smart and well rounded they are becoming.
I no longer worry….my time will come.
2. Everything in God’s time. THIS IS EXACTLY WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE (RIGHT NOW)
I am enjoying my life RIGHT NOW. The time with my family- laughing, taking pictures; the giggles and girl talk with my friends, a fun and fulfilling relationship, making time to write this blog and stay connected to what I love. I am going for it! Making new memories and trying things I have been afraid of.
Just remember it’s ok to be scared. It means you are about to do something brave, even if only by your standards.
Take time to stop and smell the roses. Laugh, Love, Get to know yourself…just LIVE!
“When I discover who I am, I’ll be free.” Ralph Ellison